Last week I was invited to speak at a private healing retreat to give an “In-Spirit-ational” talk and teach a half-day workshop. As I prepared to share an array of pragmatic skills and/or techniques I’ve acquired from studying with gurus from around the world; I also have a clear understanding that often times during a conversation, I’ll be inspired to contribute a story about my “Extra-ordinary” teachings that have provided me with valuable insights.
During the lecture, one of the participants stood up to ask the question, “Why can’t I change my life? I’ve hired the best coaches. I’ve read all the spiritual books. I’ve tried positive thinking—and nothing works! I’m out of hope. My business sucks, my marriage is over, and to top it off, I crashed my motorcycle last week. So what can I do to fix my life??”
In that moment, there wasn’t a hesitation in my mind that this man was experiencing a tremendous amount of pain —knowing he was in the midst of self-transformation. He was being given the opportunity to master inner aspects of himself that were manifesting in his external world. This was his golden opportunity to “dig” deep into the vastness of his heart —grow as a spiritual being having a human experience and heal his life from the inside out.
I could feel this man’s angst. I know because I’ve been there, too. There was a time when my life was a complete train wreck and there wasn’t anything comfortable about feeling uncomfortable in my own skin. But in retrospect, this was the “perfect storm” for me to become aware of the choices I was consciously or unconsciously creating. These were the moments for me to get brutally honest with myself, my life, and build an unwavering relationship with the Source of Truth.
But before I responded to him, I took a deep breath, made eye contact and said, “You might want to sit down for this. I have an “out-of-the-box” encounter that I’d like to share you. Are you willing to have an open mind and listen?” He nodded yes and proceeded to sit.
I then said, “I may not have your answer but what I do know is this: When your life is no longer working for you, beating yourself up or pointing fingers ridden with guilt, anger and resentment is NEVER the answer. But what WILL raise you out of this conundrum is to add more “Light” to your unanswered questions and greatest fears. In fact, add more authenticity. More integrity. More Unconditional Love. Add more God into everything. Choosing to pour these essential ingredients into your life will energetically shift the frequency of who and what you attract; therefore, changing the quality of your daily experiences.
****And… I would like to share with you a personal, mystical experience that was my “wake-up” call in knowing this. During one of the darkest moments in my life, literally, I spent more time ruminating in fear, and in victim mode than I did dwelling in Love and gratitude—-and my attitude was about to get an “Inspired” adjustment.****
This happened one morning while I sitting at the foot of my bed having one of my many conversations with God…. (Yes, I talk to God.)
God: Are you going to open the curtains this morning?
Me: Nope. I’m going to choose to sit in the dark.
God: Are you sure?
End of conversation.
I then stood up, took a shower, got dressed, walked down the stairs and out the front door.
8pm that evening:
I arrived at home after a long day of running in circles being a “chaotic busy body.” As I ventured up the stairs and into my bedroom, right before my eyes was an “Awe-inspiring Ta-Da” moment! Every light was turned on full-blast, and beaming towards the middle of the room. Yes, I know, crazy, huh? But Truth stopped me dead in my tracks and humbled me like no other.
Me: (In my best grumpy voice) “Really? What is this about?”
God: “We thought we would add light to your situation.”
End of story.”
This Magnificent experience was a game changer for me because I was being forced to shift my way of thinking, followed up with mindful actions. My given challenge was to shed more light where there was a shadow of a doubt. Period.
After I shared this story in the workshop, of course, there were a few participants who looked at me with a stare of disbelief; but then there were those who didn’t. The Light turned on.
As my mentor once told me, “Thank God for those of us who are cracked because we are the ones who let the Light in.”
P. S. If you should ever find yourself sitting in a room full of darkness, the answer is: Turn on the Light. 🙂